Another 4 years

On Nov 2 we will get either an new or old President. Boy how fast is time flies. The Florida's recount fiasco seem like yesterday event. A lot of things have changed since then. Most of them are for worse. Or better? I really don't know. Maybe I tend to be more pessimistic at my older age. Or maybe the doom and gloom news I've seen everyday really stress me out. I remember on my college day all I care about is fun, fun, and more fun. Now it's about taking care of my kids, steady income, food on the table, soccer practices, PTA, my cholesterol level, daily dose of exercise, world news, Bush and Kerry, Libs vs Cons, meaning of life, and more of the endless worrying and pondering. Sometime when I drop my kids of at school, I sit in the car and recall my own childhood. Boy, I wish to be like them again. Sure they too have their own stress at school. But they all about kids things. So innocent and so joyful. I always told my kid to try to do good and have fun. Another 4 years will soon pass. My older boy will become a teenager. I won't be able to hug him anymore in front of his friends. A lot of things will soon be changed. I for some reason still see myself still trap in this same shell after those 40 plus year! So what have I learned in those 40 years. A lot of things to survie, to work, to make friend, to get ahead in life. But anything for me, for myself? This is the easiest question to answer but to be able to do is not a trivial task and that is: be happy in this present no matter how unfortunate you found yourself in.